The world moves in mysterious ways. Sometimes those ways are seven shades of suckfullness. My last week has been pretty much in that suckfull zone.
It’s weird when everything changes.
On Monday 25th of July, I was rushed to hospital and diagnosed with a large Renal Cell Carcinoma in one of my kidneys and that I would need to have a full nephrectomy of the left kidney. Truth be told, deep down I knew something wasn’t right over six weeks ago when I had pains in the side.
To assist with understanding this, I have used the POWER OF MS PAINT to illustrate what my game plan is.
I’ve been getting used to saying the word cancer over the last few days and yes.. I put the word cancer in Comic Sans font. It bloody well deserves it.
Same time last week my life was about my business and catching Pokemon. I was focused and excited about the next block of training that my clients and I were about to tackle (which started this week no less!)
As I write this, I am grateful that I am no longer passing blood clots the size and shape of my finger when I pee.
I am grateful that I have amazing friends and family bolstering my spirit. I am so so lucky to have an amazing partner who has been so caring and supportive.
Tomorrow morning, I will head to the hospital and get ready to tackle the rest of my life as a Cancer Conqueror.
Not a survivor. Survivor isn’t the right word. I’m going to conquer the shit out of it. Sure, there is some collateral damage (Seeya later left kidney! I barely knew you until you decided to bleed and be a nuisance) but it is what it is.
As weird as it sounds – the weeks of impending recovery haven’t been what has been making me anxious. It’s been the thought of having the garden hose gauged catheter inserted again! It was high on priority list of questions for the surgeon when he rang “So.. when do you insert the catheter again? Oh, when I’m knocked out? THANK YOU SO MUCH! Oh it’s the smaller size this time? EVEN BETTER!”
The next twelve weeks will be completely different to what I thought they would be. It’s a bit shit but rather than being upset about it, I know I have work to do. I have to recover. I have to get better and I have to remain strong so I can get back to where I want to be. As to how my body fares during this time? I have a rough idea what will happen. I will lose some muscle.. maybe a lot? I may slink below that alarm bell ringing 75kg mark. I will have scars and some extra emotional baggage to carry. There is a part of me that worries that if I don’t look the part as a PT, my business might suffer. I will no doubt be impatient and feel restricted but I just have to suck that up. I took a photo tonight since this is the process clients go through when they start a challenge. I am no different but I can really see how the last few months I was fighting something other than a persistent cold.
I’ve lost muscle and size as it is. This picture also shows where they will do their incisions too. I have posted this I guess as a commitment to myself that in 11 weeks time, I will look and feel better than I do now.
So while the clients of Epic Win PT embark on their 12 week challenge, I too will embark on mine which will be different in some ways but the same in others. I’ve never really had a life or death situation presented to me but here I am.. trying my best to be ready to face it.
What I want to know though is.. for those whose challenge it is to lose body fat and/or change your food habits.. how ready to commit are you? If I had the choice, I sure as hell would be taking the latter as a challenge! For those of you who want to change your health and fitness for the better and reduce your risk of something similar happening – what is it going to take for you to have your snap point?
When are you going to quit with the excuses about work or not having enough time so that YOU are in control when everything changes?
My situation isn’t something I did. It was shit bad luck. Yet I have set myself goals for my 12 week challenge. Set your goals now and let’s tackle these next 12 weeks challenge together. Want/Need – it doesn’t matter. I will be selfish though and completely guilt trip you on this but by you partaking and succeeding in working towards your goals – you help me get better.
BAM. NO EXCUSES NOW!!!
GAME ON MOLES and I will see you all when I am allowed to start moving around. Since I won’t be there to see you all working hard – I expect pictures and facebook posts! I will be bored shitless in bed so I need something to occupy me!
Jon is a Metabolic Precision Transformation Specialist working from his Studio EPIC WIN PT in Newmarket, Brisbane. Follow all the fun and adventures by liking the Facebook page here